What I want to feel?

I don’t want to feel God

I don’t want to feel Universe

I don’t want to feel Soul

I don’t want to feel Life energy

I don’t want to feel me.

I don’t want to feel true me, after clearing crust of I or delusions.

I don’t want to feel past lives

I don’t want to feel Karma

I don’t want to feel enlightened

I don’t want to feel the ecstacy during meditation.

I don’t want to feel the ecstacy from doing various Kryas

I don’t want to feel Blissful

I don’t want to feel nature.

What I want to feel from spirituality? I don’t want to feel anything from spirituality.

What I want to feel exactly?

I don’t know what I want to feel.

I feel void. I feel null.